Keputusan, Alasan, dan Ingatan.

"Mencari keputusan" ya itulah topik post gue di july ini.

mungkin gue udah ga nge-blog karena gue sibuk, ngurusin semua hidup yang seluruh hidupnya mau di urusin.

ada suatu benda hidup yang gue incar dari bulan lalu dan baru saja kemarin dibeli. coba tebak....

hamster. ya itu dia benda hidupnya

tapi bukan minan autis bernama Zhu Zhu pet yang berbentuk hamster yang kalau perutnya di teken bunyi "gyogyogee" -__-

kali ini hamster beneran, setelah kematian Giant (hamster) yang mati saat gue  kelas 4. gue jadi menginginkan sebuah hamster untuk kedua kalinya. kemarin gue ke moi gue ngeliat ada anjing cihuahua di dalam kandang pet shop.

pas masuk pintu toko petshop gue ngomong kenceng2.

"Gue: IH NAJIS, ANJING NYA KAYA AYAM WARNA PINK TULANG SEMUA."

dan spontan semua orang ngeliat ke arah gue, lalu  melihat kandang sebelah ada anjing kecil dan spontan gue ngomong lagi sambil melotot ke anjing nya karena anjing nya ngeliat gue.

"Gue: APE? APE LO LIAT-LIAT?! NGEFANS? MAU BANGET GUE BELI? MAU JADI MY PET?!"

dan kali ini semua orang benar2 ngeliat gue sampai tiba2 penjual tokonya nanya "dek mau beli apa?"

singkat cerita, kebelilah ini hamster dan nyokap ngajak makan. sehabis makan kita pulang dan gue mikirin nama buat 2 hamster gue ini.

tadinnya mau "clover & buster" tapi buster nya itu kaya nama anjing. kalau "gamo & mameshiba" terlalu ke jepang-jepangan kan gue ga kawaii. 

hampir 15 menit mikirin ini doang, akhirnya muncul lah nama " Spiky & Spike" walaupun spike nya itu nama anjing di Tom n Jerry. bodolah siapa peduli asal hamster nya lucu org pun tertarik.

main sama hamster ini cukup ngebuat gue gila, apa karena hamsternya autis? masalahnya kandang hamster gue cukup besar (bukan sombong) tapi kerjaan hamster gue itu manjatin jaring2 kandang trus menghempaskan dirinya kebelakang kaya mau salto tapi jadinya jatuh yang fail.

gue ngisi mangkok kecil dengan makanan hamster setelah di tinggal beberapa menit itu mangkok udh dalam keadaan terbalik dan dalemnya berserakan. kini gue merasa bingung, apa kah tempat makan nya ga layak?

sebenarnya gue make mangkok pudding dari plastik biar hemat, dan gue bermain sejenak.

tiba2 abang gue dateng trus ngomong " Tir, nanti hamsternya jangan di kasih makan buah atau sayur asem ya!" gue bingung tuh gue nanya "emang aku pernah ngasih makan hamster pake sayur asem?" abang gue jawab"tuh, si Giant dulu lo kasih makan sayur asem" gue diem. apakah Giant mati di sebabkan oleh sayur asem gue? ini ga masuk akal.

setelah gue ingat2 kembali Giant mati karena ada 3 alasan yg berbeda. alesan nyokap bilang "dia mati karena digigitin semut terus", alesan kakak gue" dia mati karena di tusuk sama anak pembantu gue pake tusuk gigi waktu gue tinggal di Kalimantan" dan alasan gue"dia mati karena sayur asem gue".

gatau kenapa kejadian ini gamau gue ulang di 2 hamster ini, 

tapi jika hamster ini mati tanpa sebab, mungkin bukan karena sayur asem atau semut atau tusuk gigi.

tapi mungkin karena dia udh keterusan memjatuhkan badan nya.

sehingga ngebuat dia jadi gagal perut. 

sudah sore dan bentar lagi buka puasa gue harus menyudahi post ini.

selamat berbuka wahai orang islam! semoga makanan nya diberkahi amin...

byebyee grazie!

Hoooli-daaay

Do you know why life is very complicated?
because everything make it complicated such like my holiday now. sometimes it make me
very bored, angry, even happy. but i don't know why. everything seems weird and stupid
in my eyes.
having a long holiday in my grandma house and stuck in my bed. my cousin playing with lamp (like turn off the lamp and than turn on the lamp and laughing like they are the only one in the house) and punch me with pillow
and doesn't sleeping until morning because they make a stupid story about something impossible.
god.......should i still alive?
and my cousin she name is Meli, she like to see my phone when i don't use it. and she always open my facebook, twitter, msn, or maybe anything in my phone. why she open my phone? i don't know because she say it's fun to see my phone everyday. not just saw my all social messanger..SHE OPEN MY PICTURE TOO!!
and my twinny cousin Daffa & Raffa have a different personality. Daffa is fussy and naughty and Raffa is annoying and like to screaming but sometimes they're seems nice.
they just look fine in my heart, but my eyes say no they don't. Let's die.
this night my cousin just singing" YOU DON'T KNOW YOUR BEAUTIFUL OO WHAT MAKE YOU BEAUTIFUL OO!!" beside my ear.
and i just lying in my bed looking at my phone and writing in my every social messanger like "ssttt can you just stop making a noisy beside my ear?!!"
and everybody doesn't understand.
and my cousin stop making a noisy when Taha say in msn "I love you:*" for my 2 cousin. and then Raffa yelling "EEEW I'M NOT HOMO!!" and i stop to smile.-. and looking at Raffa weirdly.
and then they playing and i'm listening music.
yasterday i just promise to stop talking about 2 humans that make me crazy, who is them? of course a boy who make my cousin get crazy.
and i believe that i can forget them but my cousin still say it everytime non-stop. and make me remember and than remember about the promise. such like telling a dream, even imagination. about how can i close with boy and how can i feel what is love mean.
it make me i was in fanatsy place like in cinderella story or maybe sleeping beauty. haha anyway nice try, the story make me feel like i was a jerk.
and then try to hide from my another cousin (not tell the name)who very interesting to meet a little prince who is my friend in Turkey and he is in the same class when i stay in Karsiyaka.
she's screaming just because see the picture and think that he is my cousin husband. ha ha girls.
and 1 thing that you should know, i feel the world is taken by a children who fall in love in the wrong way and kill all the teenager mind because they just think world is full of prince and princess fall in love.
now, they make a serious story about it. but i'm so sorry my brain said " how to run from everything?"
i love my cousin. they telling me about turkish boy and they repeat the story until i feel i wan't to kill both of them-_-
but i still love how they make my moodbooster come back and don't feel alone.
anyway it's passed night and it goes to midnight an then i have to answer all my mention from friend and saw my stupid notification about farmville or another stupid games like "hey 'blabla' just ask you to join in farmville!" b**ch shut up.
i want to passed my relax night: ]
Bye Bye Grazie!

Tenth People who always in 'coeur'

i love everyone.

but i have some people that i think they are always in "<3" here. whenever they are.

the first one is Mom. sometimes she is the most annoying person in my live, but..i cannot stop thinking about her when i'm alone in some place without her and she is the first one who talk with me at the night when i need her.

and the second is Father. he is such my hero in my family, and i dont care what people say about my father. he always be here.

and the third is The tim Api Unggun(femy,kanya,nissa,sheila). without them i'm nothing, when i have trouble in school god help me to find them in one place. sometimes i get angry with them but i cannot angry too long, because they are important in my live.

and the fourth is Meryem. i know it's hard to meet her again because she live in another country, but you cannot guess how much i love her. i feel she is like my twin when i'm in Turkey. but she is the first one who make me laugh everyday and we love to stalking facebook and throwing gravel into the sea.

and the fifth is Bilo. i dont know why i choose him to be my favorite person in my live, but actually he is my favorite person in my live..he have a good sense of humor and very nice to talk with him. and when i talk with him there is something unique at the massage. and he is a comfortable person, he always be there.

and the sixth is Big Brother. he is the most gadfly person. but you know i love him more than anything.

and the seventh is Citra. she is my old friend, but she always make me laugh when i get bored, we never meet again since we study in different school. but i still believe that she always remember me.

and the eighth is Anita. she's from Poland but she can keep your secret everyday when you need her to vent. i love her because she mean for me.

and the ninth is Grandma. i've already make my Grandma glad because i've already make her very happy just because i'm dancing. she always make me happy.

and the last is Iva. she is my cousin, and she is one of my cousin who close with me. she have a good sense of humor and always make me comfort to talk with her. she like maintaining reptiles and playing Ameba Pico.

so that's all the person who always in my 'coeur' and always in there whenever i need them. 

just one thing that you should know "you cannot guess how much i love them more than anything that i have"

thankyou for reading. bye bye and GRAZIEE! : ]

new application in Facebook

produk terbaru yang sudah dikeluarkan Facebook tahun ini, quess what??? sekarang kita sudah bisa chat di video call sama hal nya seperti lo chat di Skype. Application ini baru2 ini dibuat agar memudahkan penguna Facebook tidak harus repot membuat Skype hanya untuk Video call saja.
semua berawal dari saat gue masih di Turkey, dan Meryem sedang sibuk bermain dengan laptopnya gue lewat di sampingnya and then tiba2 dia ketawa sendiri sambil ngeliat layar laptop, dan gue hanya memasang tampang yang ngiranya dia sedeng.
gue mendekat dan........oh dia lagi webcam-an sama temen nya, tapi anehnya kok di facebook ya?
akhirnya gue bertanya dengan Meryem, dan dia memberitahu gue kalau di Facebook sudah di buat new application yang bisa ngebantu lo video call in facebook tanpa harus ngebuat akun skype. nice..
akhirnya gue terhipnotis dan punya niat untuk coba apps baru ini.
ya 1 bulan kemudia bulan baru yaitu bulan May. tiba, dan inisiatif itu teringat lagi saat Bilal menyuruh gue unutk webcam-an, awalnya dia yg ngajak dan ternyata gue harus install dulu...
what theeee fffffuuu........
Meryem gak ngasih tau soal ini -__- akhirnya laptop gue kena virus dan download nya failed.
gue mungkin bakalan matahin laptop karena anti virus di laptop gue harus nunggu scan 1 jam lebih.. alhasil laptop gue virusan.
akhirnya udah lama gue melupakan apps ini, dan hingga akhirnya hari ini malem ini. kebetulan ada Adhel sama Ochan lagi ol. yaudah gue minta tolong dulu sama Adhel dan ternyata dia ol di hape, emang dasar nasib dia berhubungan sama nasib gue. akhirnya huuuuuuh ada Ochan.

T:can! cobadeh kamu teken gambar camera di paling atas sebelah namamu
O:emang itu apa tir?
T:itu buat webcaman can, eh aku aja deh yang duluan call you..answer ye
O:iya...
T:omg! can gue mesti install dulu!!!
O:yaudah instal lah
*10 menit meng-install*
T:gagal can elah! laptop ku malah virusan lagi
O:yaudah sini aku aja yang duluan
T:eh can gausah udah bisa kok! sekarang aku call kamu ya can, tapi di answer ngetest doang
*Ochan should installing the apps*
O:tir ternyata aku install dulu... ehehehehe
T: yaelaaaah!! buruan yak!

dan akhirnya apps ini berhasil kita download, akhirnya gue call ochan tiba2 ada suara piano dan ga aa orang di depan camera, dan ochan nutup cameranya pake tangan-___-
tapi Ochan baik loh mau bantuin thanks can! : ]
Bye Bye
Grazie! <3

Turkey! Part 5

this is some picture when i'm in Turkey, Enjoy!: ]
sorry if i put this picture without sequence

(1) Parade with another country

(2)The Concert!

(3)The Festival!

(4) before the concert

(5) Appear in Ozel Karsiyaka Koleji ( Nandak Ganjen-Betawi dance)

(6) Appear in Ozel Karsiyaka Koleji (Tifa-Papua dance)

(7)Appear in Ozel Karsiyaka Koleji (Saman-Aceh dance)

(8) Kak amar with student from Karsiyaka

(9)Learn about Turkish dance (after the show)

(10)Festival in Outlet centre

(11) Festival in Outlet centre

(12) At Kartepe with Meryem

(13)Farewell

(14)Separation, picture with Baba, Anne, Kubra, Meryem

(15) Separation, picture with Hakan

(16) at strait Bosphorus

(17)in Turkish delight shop

(18)at Aya shophia

(19)at Grandbazaar

(20)Istanbul airport, transit to Dubai and go to Jakarta

so this is my picture when i'm in Turkey, i have a lot of picture but i'm so sorry i cannot share more picture. okay bye bye Graziee!<33

Turkey! Part 4

Goodmorning Turkey :' )
i don't want to leaving this bed, dont wan't to leaving Meryem dog, don't wan't to leaving anything.
i just go to bathroom and take a bath, i dont wanna leave this bathroom... my suitcase is already in living room. my suitcase ready to go, yeah, today Indonesian group will go to Istanbul because we have a tour 2 days. can i stay for a long time in here? i already love this place. and then i go to diningroom and eating together, but without Betul because she is very tired of tonight. Meryem is ready to go school with Me, Baba, Anne, and Kubra. Betul didn't joining us because she should go to school, after breakfast i'll take my bag and my suitcase heading out the door, and i'm wearing my shoes. i want to crying because why i should go to istanbul very fast : [
in car Meryem hold my hand very tight like she don't want me to leave her right now, and i'll rest my head in her shoulder..and when we arrive at school everybody is already in there, i'll meet kak Amar first and he told me to open my suitcase because i have to put a music equipment, and i'll open my suitcase and closed it again.
everybody hugged me very tight, i know...i don't want past this moment so fast. but..i can't because i'm not a teacher.
and then i'll meet Hanun and Sebnem, when we talking with everybody..Sebnem is crying first and then all student hugged Sebnem. and Meryem crying too and hug me, she said "Tiara...don't go please. you will come back again right? next yer? or maybe this year?" and i'm becoming crying.
everybody is crying but...i'll meet Hakan and we talk a little conversation and then we take a picture, everybody yelling at me when they saw Me and Hakan take a picture together "TIARAA!!!" but i just show my thumbs up and smiling at them.
and then i'll searching Meryem, she lost i dont know where is she, i'm searching her into the back of the bus. but i still don't find her, and then i glanced slighty toward the left side. i just see someone i've ever seen when i have show in Karsiyaka, he is the one of high school boy who wearing Red shirt.
i don't know who is he? but at this time he wearing a white shirt. and then i'll try to stop glanced and search Meryem again, and i found her.
when we alreayd in bus everybody crying very hard, but before i'll go to the bus. i'm hugged Kubra, Anne, and Baba. they are look like my family in Jakarta, i'm hugged Baba and say " BABAA!! i'm gonna miss you so much" and Baba look at me like a father lost her daughter. very sad : [
oh and i don't forget to hugged Semia (Meryem bestfriend, such a beautiful girl when the first time i meet her)
and i'm go to the bus, all student from Karsiyaka standing at the bus door. they are crying and we just can say "Goodbye".
and then i look into the window while holding a flower from Meryem. and then i just saw a boy who wearing a white shirt, and he waved his hand at me and i'll just smiling at him and waved my hand too. and he say 'add me' but i don't know what is his facebook named, maybe i just can wait him to add me ://
and then the bus door is closed, i'm crying again. we leave Karsiyaka this day (hell yea i hate this:( )
and then the bus is going to go to Istanbul.
i look at window, Karsiyaka one by one look very small, small, small, and until i cannot see it again. 
but Baba, Anne, and Kubra catch the bus and they waved they hand, and i'm wipped my tears and waved my hand too :' ]
and then we go to Istanbul, bye bye kocaeli maybe someday i will come back again :) 
and then the bus stop at some place and Eva say she should stop in here, and all my friend crying again and they yelling at Eva. i'm crying agian. evaaaaaaaa
and then we stop crying and we go to Istanbul today. bye bye kocaeli :')
we just arrive at Istanbul we going to chinese restaurant and then go to Blue mosque and Aya sophia...all that place is very interesting place :) and then after tour we're going to Kent Hotel. tomorrow we will go to strait Bosphorus and go to Grandbazaar, 
i'm just wake up at morning, and go to take a bath and then go to breakfast. and then we go to strait Bosphorus and then go to the Grandbazaar, i'm going to schopping Turkish merchandise and then walking with Hanun and all my friend. i meet someone with his father and his father say "this is my son, he look like Justin Bieber" and then i'll just laughing (actually, this is very weird and not funny-__-)
after from Grandbazar we're going to Mall, and shopping a branded stuff in there. love it hahaha ;P
after from mall we're going to Airport and we will come back to Indonesia, haaft..and we transit in Dubai and then from Dubai we're going to Jakarta and we arrive at jakarta i just found  people send me a friend request at facebook, i saw the name and i'll find a boy who wearing a white shirt, he named is Bilal Topal and his friend name is Fatih Turan hhahhahaa, and another student from another school and from Karsiyaka koleji. okay so that's all my story in Turkey :) 
but i want to say something for everybody in Kocaeli : "everybody in Kocaeli i think is very friendly people:) I <3 Kocaeli! maybe someday i will come again) and for Istanbul "Thanks for the interesting tour <3"
and from all student in Karsiyaka " ADAMSIN! i will miss you all. lots of love <3333!"
and the last massage is for Kubra, Betul, and Meryem " You are is the most beautiful girl in Kocaeli, i hate to leave you all..because we already have the best time together :'D i love you and lots of love from me, say Merhaba for Baba and Anne! <3 xxx"


so this is my story when i'm in Kocaeli and Istanbul, 10 days having a great time in here, make me wanna stay for a long time : ] hope i can come again and i will post the picture when i'm in Turkey. just wait for "Turkey! Part 5(photo)" see you soon! bye bye and Grazie! <3
SENI SEVIYORUM TURKEY!<3 xxx

Turkey! Part 3

puuffff..........THIS DAY! YAY KARTEPE!
just wake up in the morning and take a bath and going to dining room with Meryem. i'm just a little awkward because last night Meryem parents just ask me "Did you ever see snow and play with snow?" i'm just say "No, my all family never see a snow, because in Indonesia just have 2 season. Hot and Rain" and this morning after breakfast i'm just tidy up my suitcase and looking Meryem playing laptop beside me. suddenly Betul told me to wearing a jacket, scraft, and gloves. i'm just a little confused because i don't know why should i wearing it all. so...i ask Meryem "where we going to do now?" and Meryem say "Were going to Kartepe playing a snow. with Betul, Kubra, and my 2 cousin".
i'm just shocking. omg! i cannot believe this, i just tell their parents i've never playing snow yasterday night. so i just change my clothes with a simple clothes because i hate to wearing a lot of clothes.
and we're going to Kartepe right now! and then arrive at Kartepe..Meryem hold my hand because she doesn't wearing her gloves, and the temprature is very cold.
Meryem cousin name is Seyda and i dont know who is the other one, but they are very nice to mee : ] but the first we take a picture with my instax and Betul & Seyda camera.
in Kartepe everything is white, until i cannot feel my hand because very cold. and then her cousin hire ski equipment, and playing ski together but Betul and her 2 cousin doesn't playing skii :// i don't know why.
so the only playing skii is Me, Meryem, and Kubra. were laughing and betul just yelling and laughing..
and then we make a Snowman today, and take a picture with the small Snowman we made together : ] and take a picture with skii equipment, Kubra, and Snowman..
Meryem, Me and Kubra climbing small iceberg but it's very slippery and make us always fall down again. and then Me and Meryem make a pillow from snow and we sleeping looking at the sky :P and Seyda take a picture with us..
after from Kartepe were going to picnic area but still remained in the Kartepe area. in here i don't see a snow anyway..
in here very warm, all i see is everyone picnic with their family eating in Restaurant, or under the tree. it's a comfortable place i think : D
and then we come back to home, but Betul going out again with their cousin. so Meryem, Me,and Kubra go to Restaurant kebap in town, arrive at the restaurant we just meet a person was looking at me and his act so arrogant puuh...teenager. after eating Kubra go to Sekapark. so Me and Meryem go to home..and we having a great time by playing laptop until Anne and Baba come back home. and tomorrow i have Farewell in Karsiyaka Koleji.....i dont want to past this day very fast : (.
goodmorning Tiara! are you ready to go school? Meryem wake me up and then i'm get ready for breakfast and go to school.
in school i'm wearing my Batik clothes, and just meet my friend like always...aah very nice to meet them again:P
and then we meet Indonesian embassy who live in Turkey, and take a picture with them so much fun. after from school my teacher say we have to go again with family each other, so today i'll go with Betul and my lovely girl Meryem ;)
we're going to shopping town but the first were going to Bank. and meet Betul's friend after from Bank :) and we're going to Lc walkiki(clothing store). why i'm going to here? because Betul just ask me to come in to this store, and she told me to buy a clothes but i dont want because i don't interest with this store, so she just buy a clothes for my little brother and she pay it too :// such a nice girl yea...
and we go to merchandise shop, and Betul buy me a black glass when exposed to hot water this glass would be show a photo. but the picture is when we in Kartepe.. and Betul make 2 keychain for me and Meryem.
this is very sweet :') i'm so happy to be with them and were going to eating at Burger king. and everybody ask Meryem about me they are very nice to me and we eating and after from Burger king, Betul going to Sekapark alone and leaving Me and Meryem. we both go to home and we will go to Fotojans to pick my glass and 2 keychain :) and anyway Meryem just buy me 2 bracelets, she is the sweet girl i've ever meet in turkey :').
in afternoon i just sitting at window wearing nail polish with Meryem, and i just saw 2 little girl looking at me and say "wow! she's from endonezya" and i'll say "Hi:)" to them :) sweet.
and we're going to town again and go to Fotojans, the shop owner in Fotojans is very funny, he always act so dumb but i know he is not a dumb person -__-
so after we pick my glass and my keychain, were going to market near Fotojans and Meryem told me to buy a drink, so i just pick "Cappy juice" very delicious juice and you should try it ;P
and when we walking to home we meet a lot of people from Turkey, some people say i look like a chinese -__- i hate you, but some of them say i'm very nice and friendly :) and by the way we almost pursued by teenager boy-___- because Meryem say "sssttt" -__-
and we come back to home and tomorrow....................

continue today or maybe another day :' ( sad story beggin at "Turkey! Part 4" byee
grazie!